Highway to Holiness

For God and country, after trying holiness in the seminary, I enlisted in the Navy. There, I protected others and my country while serving God. I discovered that both serving God in the seminary and serving my country in the military could lead me to heaven after my life here on earth. Both taught me about loyalty, courage, discipline, and putting the needs of others before oneself. At my old age, nothing stops me from finding my destiny with my Lord Jesus Christ as long as I follow my Highway to Holiness.

For a Greater Good: The Tom Swann Story

I wrote this book because you and I both need some inspiration from time to time in a tough world. I came out of the closet in 1992 as a gay Marine Corps veteran and civilian worker with a secret clearance for the Department of the Navy. I was assaulted and faced discrimination and retaliation from Navy officials. I was living with advanced AIDS. I suffered and persevered while the ACLU represented me in litigation against the Navy. I am the last federal employee to have his access to classified information challenged by the government based on being a member of the LGBTQ+ community.

Our historic successful ACLU litigation against the Navy prompted the Navy Secretary to add sexual orientation protection to the Equal Employment Opportunity (EEO) policy for all civilian employees. The Navy added this protection more than four years before the other branches of the military. Now DEI and the EEOC are being shut down, and we seem to be going backwards. My story will shed light on how difficult work was before DEI and why these programs are so vital for our nation.

The fact that the ACLU and I accomplished this is inspiring. It means you can persevere through adversity and your hopes can be fulfilled. First, have faith in a higher power, and second, believe in the person you see when you stand in front of a mirror. You must never give up hope or give in to discrimination.

The Last Ordinary Life

In The Last Ordinary Life, debut author Cynthia Bowers invites readers on a deeply personal journey, recounting her life-altering decision to donate one of her kidneys to a critically ill 11-year-old boy at Phoenix Children’s Hospital. Registered on the transplant list and running out of time, the boy’s only hope came from a woman he had never met.

This story is not just a recounting of the incredible events that led up to an unprecedented organ transplant between two strangers but a transformative narrative that explores the profound impact of spiritual growth and self-discovery.

The Last Ordinary Life is more than a memoir; it’s a testament to the power of selflessness, the importance of overcoming our deepest fears, and the transformative possibility for success that unfolds when we reconnect with our true selves. Cynthia’s journey serves as an inspiring reminder that within each of us lies the potential to live extraordinary lives.

Call of the Raven

This true story takes readers on an unforgettable journey into the untouched wilderness of southern Prince of Wales Island in Southeast Alaska – a land of breathtaking beauty, where towering mountains meet the vast expanse of the North Pacific Ocean.

It offers a rare glimpse into Haida culture and the experiences of a young white couple from the Midwest as they navigate life in a Native American community. Arriving in Hydaburg as teachers, they soon realize that they are the ones being taught.

Through their experiences, they learn profound lessons – patience, the value of listening over speaking, what it truly means to be a minority, and how to let the word honkey roll off their backs like the ever-present rain. Most importantly, they come to understand the power of accepting people for who they are, rather than who we expect them to be.

You are invited to share in the trials and tribulations that changed their lives forever.

Tayoltita, las Minas de San Luís

Fresh out of the University of Colorado with a degree in geology, the author found himself embarking on an adventurous first job as an exploration geologist for Minas de San Luís, situated in the quaint pueblo of Tayoltita in Durango, Mexico. Nestled under Bolaños Peak and in the heart of the Sierra Madre Occidental, the mine was a remote gem accessible only by a solitary road winding 3,000 feet up the mountain.

Beyond his duties at the mine, he was charged with the thrilling task of scouting the surrounding wilderness for new gold or silver deposits, offering potential expansion for the company. It’s in these explorations, traversing rugged terrains always on muleback, never horse, where the story truly unfolds.

His narrative richly details the culture, courage, intrigue, superstitions, wisdom, and escapades of the local inhabitants he met along the way. These encounters add a colorful depth to his experiences in Tayoltita.

Set against the backdrop of the early days of the drug cartels, this memoir not only recounts geological explorations but also captures a pivotal moment in history. After his return to the United States, the role of Exploration Geologist at Minas de San Luís remained unfilled, marking the end of an era in this secluded part of the Sierra Madre Occidental.

Concrete Flower

This memoir recounts a childhood marked by maternal abandonment, a mentally ill father’s emotional torment, and an alcoholic stepfather’s physical abuse. Left to raise younger siblings with scarce resources or adult guidance, the author navigated profound neglect. Despite these circumstances, relentless determination led to financial independence and homeownership by her early twenties, establishing a foundation built against difficult odds.

Yet, hardships persisted through challenging romantic and family relationships, resulting in several crises throughout her life. Faith and self-belief provided the strength to endure, even when faced with losing her home to her mother and an attempted physical attack by her father.

This account details a journey toward forgiveness, breaking cycles of abuse, and finding positivity, resilience, and love, embodying the author’s description of herself as a ‘concrete flower,’ finding light amidst difficult ground.

Duty Before Love

Fred Carspecken (1914–2003) lived most of his life in a time when society constrained individuals like him. Though he was a closeted gay man until the age of 62, Fred remained true to the responsibilities and expectations placed upon him, often putting duty before his personal desires and needs. This biography explores Fred’s struggle between fulfilling societal duties and pursuing personal happiness. His story is a testament to the many men and women of his era who sacrificed love to meet societal expectations.

Duty Before Love highlights the generational challenges of being a gay man during a time when societal acceptance was not an option. Fred’s life story reveals the emotional and psychological impact of remaining closeted for decades, only to finally embrace his true self in later years. This biography offers an intimate look at a man who quietly lived a life filled with integrity, compassion, and deep relationships, despite having to conceal an essential part of himself for so long.

Incredibly Blessed

An 89-year-old Roman Catholic priest from Minnesota fell in church and required surgery to repair a neck injury. During his recovery in a rehabilitation facility, he did not dwell on bad luck or misfortune but instead reflected on how blessed his life had been.

Born in Indiana, he arrived in Minnesota in a shoebox at just three weeks old and grew up on a farm during the Great Depression. The smallest boy in his class and extremely shy, he first felt the call to the priesthood in sixth grade at his Catholic school. He attended high school and two years of college at a minor seminary in St. Paul, where he gradually overcame much of his shyness. He then continued his studies in philosophy and theology at a major seminary in St. Paul before being ordained as a priest.

His ministry took him to parishes in western Minnesota and to chaplaincy roles in Catholic nursing homes. Over the years, he traveled extensively, visiting Rome, the Holy Land, and a mission parish in Guatemala. His journeys also took him to 22 countries, including the Galápagos, the Amazon, the Antarctic Peninsula, and Easter Island.

This is the story of a life filled with challenges, adventures, and countless blessings.

Gift of Failure

So, what do you do when everything in life falls apart? What about those still, small moments when you helplessly watch your dreams shattered by an unexpected calamity? You work hard to make a living for yourself and for your loved ones and then boom! It’s shattered like a bad dream. When you finally come to, you find yourself in brokenness and despair.

I once read that economic hardship happens to most successful people at least once in their lives; those who dedicate their lives to a worthy pursuit can, instantly, find their hearts ripped out by adversity. Suddenly, they find themselves in an abyss of darkness and nakedness, stripped down to nothing!

Perhaps, then, we realise we are not merely what we accumulate or achieve. In such moments, stripped bare, what we are is our essential consciousness, like a disembodied spirit, painfully wondering what to do to alleviate the pain.

“In Him who is the source of my strength, I have strength for everything.”

– Philippians 4:13

Doketo: The 1960s Story of a Thoroughbred Racehorse

This story is about a thoroughbred racehorse named Doketo, who was owned and trained by the person telling the story. Doketo was a good racehorse, though not exceptional as he might have you believe. However, as the racetrack saying goes, he was better than an empty stall.

Life is like that. Friends and associates may not be exactly what you want, but in a very real sense, they can still be better than an empty stall. Doketo’s eventual owner learned this lesson as a 20-year-old boxer competing in the fiercely contested featherweight division of the 1954 Golden Gloves, where winners qualified for the Pan American Games.

The late veteran boxing judge Billy Oaths believed the young fighter had a strong chance of winning his division. His confidence came from the boxer’s previous bout, a stunning televised victory over a top-ranked U.S. featherweight in the opponent’s hometown just three months earlier. As the young boxer climbed the steps to the ring for his first Golden Gloves match before a large crowd, Billy called out, ‘C’mon, let’s get the ball rolling!’ The boxer, full of confidence, shouted back, ‘Don’t worry, Billy. This won’t last long.’

And it didn’t.

The referee stopped the fight in the first round, awarding a TKO win to the boxer’s opponent. While disappointed, Billy would likely have summed it up with the same racetrack wisdom: his boxer and Doketo were both better than an empty stall.

Phoenix Rising: My Journey with Bipolar Disorder

Sometimes, in the midst or in the immediate aftermath of the symptoms of bipolar disorder, it can feel as if one’s life is on fire. From the raging highs of mania to the desperate lows of deep depression, and every single difficult-to-discuss characteristic in between, this illness can be extremely destructive. The imagery of a phoenix is the perfect metaphor for someone touched by these unquenchable flames.

This publication is a contribution to the conversation about mental health. It’s another story. It’s another voice. It’s an attempt to get these issues out of the shadows. It’s an effort to make it okay to talk about symptoms like dark intrusive thoughts, hyper-sexuality, and the anguish of suicidal ideation, along with countless other manifestations. It strives to chip away at secrecy and shame, which can surround these topics.

This book is meant to serve as a tool for openness and hope. Remember, the phoenix always rises from the ashes. Keep rising!

The Reason I Breathe

The Reason I Breathe: My Journey with Autism Against All Odds is about my life raising twins, one of whom is on the Autism Spectrum and the navigating, fumbling, fighting and all the lessons learned that came along with it.

In this book, you will discover how I had to put my ego and fears aside and trust my gut instincts that something alarming was going on with my son Dwight’s development. Taylor, his twin sister, was the sounding alarm for me that my son was not progressing with his language and social skills as she had been. It felt as though Dwight was going silent overnight right before my eyes and distancing himself from the family.

Defying the words of my then husband and his family, I set out on a journey to seek answers and to secure resources and support that my son desperately needed. I was mocked and severely criticized from their father for wanting to find out what was happening to our son, despite that I kept going, and it forever changed the dynamic of our family.

This led me to building my own community of support, this led me to thinking outside the box by writing to politicians in order to secure the proper school placement and resources he needed, this led me to advocating to help other families in need of the same support but above all this led me to a strength and courage that I never knew I had when I left the twins’ father after many years of abuse, humiliation and the destruction of my self-esteem.

After taking a leap of faith and enduring some lean years, I was able to create an environment of love, peace and security for my family and I sat back and watched the twins thrive in our new life.